On a Whim

I hate it when things are to be planned, or have to be planned. I like doing things on the whim because it makes room for error and improvement. But nowadays I don't have time for either of those. Everything has to be perfect. Which really sucks butt : (

I started using my planner again and it tells me what I've done during the months of September to November, when life was perfect. Or so it seemed.

Like I said, I don't like it when things are planned, back then I did everything without thorough thought and now is the time for long term improvement. It seems as if when I didn't plan my actions I also let my guards down, letting people into my secrecy and emotion. Which, at times, can't be a good thing.

Hopefully this last half of junior year will be better and I've stood ground and I know what I want. Or atleast for now, there's always time for change. I know I'm always busy with work, school, leadership, golf, SAT classes or whatever and I never sleep. I'm sorry but I try to fill up my schedule too much and I think I may even get laid off work because I request too many days off : (

Its really weird to hang out with my friends during the day time now.

One more thing, I haven't been going to school consistently this past week. That has to change .. someone needs to wake me up because my alarm clock isn't much of any use.

My car battery died today .. again. Good thing I knew what to do haha